UNCERTAINTY
This post ain't gonna be long...
I feel rather uncertain about how I should deal with the matter.. I thought I made up my mind but then I realised that it's rather dumb - that present. I need to figure out what I want. I mean, what difference will my decision make. What's the point of effectively ending it? Friends? I'm rather confused. I mean, aren't we already just friends. Then again, I'm not even too sure we are friends. It's like I'm hitting walls where ever I go, I don't see the logic about it, which is troubling. Though I'm pretty sure that I'm better off thinking promos right now...
What does it mean to effectively end it anyway? Do I stay away and imagine like nothing ever happened before. As if I never even found her blog then? Or do things still remain the same. So if things are the same, but my thinking has changed, what's the point of "effectively ending it" then? Is there even a need to tell her? I'm rather confused where's the end, what should the end look like and what should I do. It just doesn't make much sense. Okay.. I'm tired. I'm gonna bath and then get some sleep, before I wake up to do some revision... Then there's more revision tomorrow. Please may tomorrow's weather be cooling and not warm/hot in the afternoon! So that I can study effectively. ARGH!
Ja-
"Just an unattainable dream...
But then, it doesn't mean I can't dream...right?
I just have to know where is the line drawn between dreams and reality."
"Keep your dreams where they are, where they are supposed to be..."
