Monday, November 22, 2010, 9:40 PM
YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK?
I'M DISGUSTED.*train of thoughts running at c*
- where c refers to the speed of light in vacuum
I'm simply disgusted once again. And for a moment, I was doubting my choice of even thinking about attending the choir outing. Yes, for a moment and this thought is still here, up here in my head and thus I'm reconsidering whether to go for the outing or not.
This I suppose would suffice as an explanation as to why I'm feeling disgusted right now, provided you know of the issue. Seriously, what's the use if you have EYES but you can't see the light. Major failure, seriously. And the list of description of how rotten those people are goes on to infinity. Now I have to decide to put up a mask or not infront of them, for all I know soon I'll tear of this mask I wear and scream and those bastards.
Putting that aside, I must say I'm quite disappointed at myself. *sigh* I did it again, I walked away the moment I saw her. Correction: I walked very quickly away after waving to her. And now she firmly believes I have no balls (guts) to even stop and chat. ARGH. I'm pathetic -- what can I say. It was just totally unconscious, almost habitual that I rush off and not stay and linger for not even more than 10 seconds. To think I even had the brains to ask if she would go down to Iluma on Friday or Saturday, or to even think of asking her out for lunch after THIMUN tomorrow. Rubbish.
It's just plain pathetic.
Anyway, I should be writing up a new poem soon. Inspiration for a new poem has dropped on my feet... just a matter of time before I seat down infront of computer and start writing again. I did have the thought of writing a narative when I was on the LRT on the way to school not long ago, perhaps I should.
