Thursday, January 13, 2011, 11:34 PM
MADNESS
This is the time of my life where I just simply can't care less; no excuses no bullshits - it's either you're in or you're out. Seriously speaking, I really don't have to strenght to feel upset, to feel bad for myself anymore when there's just so many things to feel upset and mad about. I'm really really very tired. I'm just gonna be selfish and think for myself. It would probably be better that we don't meet up any time soon given the state of mood I am in lately, I just ain't that magnanimous I used to be, neither do I wish to continue to be the poor soul seeking for company. I feel like a nobody, a poor soul that nobody pays attention to without shouting and screaming with great effort. I don't like this feeling at all. Nobody really pays attention to what I say or what I do. Yet, the irony is the fact that I am actually still gonna take time off to go down to BBSS to help out with the choir at the CCA showcase, with thoughts that I might actually be of any help, when I could very spend more time practicing my SYF choice piece with the Tenors of the AJChoir.
If I have to walk alone down this path, then I will; slowly but surely, I'll reach my destination.
and "the journey goes on..."
