FED UP
I have sucha bitch
for a sister living next room. Early in the morning, cannot wake up 'coz she doesn't know how to manage her time, got her friend to give her a wake up call, which she totally missed thrice, on the fourth I just couldn't stand it I got off the bed and went to pick up the phone missing by a split second. Then I brought it into to my room so that I can pick it up on time. Like it was freaking annoying listening to the phone ring but no one picking up. Like seriously, it's 7.00a.m. in the moring, I rarely get to sleep in so don't freaking piss me off.
Then my mother came home after going to the market, at about 8.00a.m. Oh boy did she flare up 'coz she realised that she was going to be late. So she blamed everyone -- blamed me for not passing her the phone call or waking her up when I seriously can't give a damn about her, she blamed my mother for losing her stuffs (some piece of clothing that was supposed to go with her dress or whatnot), when it turned out that the problem was that she wore it the wrong way, front-back problem y'know. Seriously, such a blardy bitch, here I am just trying to sleep and there she is barking away, freaking fed up. She's like the worst.
IRONIC
I find it exceptionally ironic when someone says that they feel neglected by the people around her when I'm giving her the attention she wants... Others are giving her their attention too. She simply doesn't know how fortunate she is, as compared to me. There are so many people, friends who cares about her, but who is there really, to care about me? I even have a freaking bitch for a "sister", who can top that off, seriously.
Who will comfort me when I rant? Who would bother to explain the misunderstandings to me when I get mad at someone? Who would be there to just send me a message asking for her understanding, to make amendments for whatever mistake I had possible made? Making sure that she feels less "disturbed" or what not. Who will ask me for the reason that I frown? Give a
sianz face, or why do I sigh?
I guess why I bother or care so much about her is that she has something I never had, yet, she has no idea how fortunate she is to have some many always there to comfort her. Like even if I bother to check up on her emotions every now and then, where do I stand on the waiting list? Do you even bother about what I say? Does what I say hold any value at all?
Instead, she sees me as an eyesore, at times, as someone who just wants to piss her off, regardless of my efforts to make her understand. It's like, so ironic, I see her and put her in my inner circle of friends, but where do I stand? I'm like stranded somewhere along the outer circle. She just doesn't see it, she doesn't get it...
How could you be so heartless...
