Study hard I'm in my house tonight got my books out and I'm ready to write I think I'm gonna lose my mind Gotta finish cramming for exam time (x2) We just wanna finish!
Yes, I'm almost going to lose my mind from studying Physics today. Ahh, blow and blows. Just before I decided stop studying for Chemistry on Friday, I realised that I barely scraped a pass for the JC2 JC '10 MYCT MCQ Paper, which means I'm like doomed for this coming MYCT, so I extended it by another day till Saturday and started to cram information that I'm not sure. Luckily, there aren't really that much but I prolly won't get an A for this MYCT for Chemistry, VERY VERY unlikely. I'll prolly scraped at most a B again this time round. Sadening...
Then this afternoon while studying for Physics, I got a blow when I realised that I actually got stuck already at the 3rd Chapter (Dynamics), when I have like 19 Chapters in total to go. This sucks darn bad. I have... or rather I can only afford another 6 Days, which is the rest of the week to study Physics. I just hope that I can cover them all with at least 70% mastery. So I need to cover both the dept and breath of the Physics syllabus within the next 6 Days. Treacherous. It's the first time I feel so annoyed studying Physics. Well, considering the fact that I barely studied Physics in the last 1.5 year? I mean I have barely any strong foundations from the J1 topics, which made studying for MYCT right now exceptionally difficult as compared to Chemistry or Math, both of which I at least got a B for Promos.
I felt uber lost when I was studying for Physics this afternoon, like seriously desperate. I was like thinking, what the shit is this? Seriously? I am sure that I'm still capable of doing Physics in Uni anymore when I can't even handle this level of difficulty? It was just so disappointing and depressing... Luckily, I am getting out of the house to seek help the next 3 days. Seeing Junyan tomorrow, Clara simply for company on Wednesday, and more help from Leonard on Thursday.
Technically, I'm planning to cover the whole syllabus required for MYCT, which is 2 chapters less from the whole A level syllabus by... Friday or Saturday at the most. So I'll definitely need all the luck, focus and stamina I can get. Meaning to say I'm gonna stock up with maybe Redbull or Milo cans, sweets, chocolates (especially, to deal with the depressing moments that are bound to come along the way.).
This is probably the first holidays that I've actually studied so hard. Like seriously, I'm pretty sure I spent at least half the time awake studying today. And this is pretty much what I did in the last week and the previous. That's why you can see that I'm ranting so much. I'm going mad! What's keeping me sane are probably whatever entertainment I can cram in between my crazy mugging hours, certain people, Cleristo(!) and god-knows-what-else. I'll make it through this!! And be the better man!!
Oh ya, looking at Facebook feeds is depressing- I keep seeing people hanging out, going out for this and for that, while I'm stuck at home studying. Argh. :(
"What's keeping me sane are probably certain people, Cleristo(!) and god-knows-what-else." "I'll make it through this!! And be the better man!!"
